The weather is perfect today. The sun is up, and it is really hot. It makes my appetite smaller, but I pushed through, and I ate my lunch even though I didn’t want to. I starting to feel proud of myself, because I eat a lot more than I used to, and even though I feel “bigger”, I feel like I deserve food as much as anybody else.
Remember everyone: food is good, food is what keep us alive, so we need to enjoy it! Recovery is always a good idea.
Today was an interesting day. I was really happy, and had a really great time with my class, but I had a problem with food. (It is not the problem you think it is)
So, today my class and I went on a roadtrip to another city, so that we could visit the university there. It was a really nice trip, I had the best music in my ears, and the greatest view from the bus window. I really enjoyed it!
Then, when we arrived at the university, my class and I got food, or the class got food, but I didn’t. You see, I’m a vegetarian, so I could not eat the baguette that the rest of the class got. I was actually fine with that, because I thought I could buy something in the cafeteria. I was wrong. The only “food” they had was nutrilett bars. I had to live on nutrilett bars during the lecture! I was so frustrated. I didn’t want to eat “weight-loss-food”, because of my recovery.
Anyways. Later, when we were going home, I was going to buy a meal to eat in the bus, because I was really hungry. I asked the people that worked in the shop if they had any food without meat, and they were like: “eeeeehmmm, no, I’m sorry”. I was so frustrated by then that I just bought a baguette with cheese and ham, but the lady in the shop had to remove the ham. It was ok, but normally I would not eat anything that had touched meat, because I still feel that it is “dirty”.
Norway is not a country for vegetarians. If you ever consider coming to Norway, don’t expect to get vegetarian food in the shops or in restaurants. Norwegians seriously only eat meat, all the freaking time..
The day was great, even though I was a bit angry at this country for not having vegetarian food.
Ok, I just had to get this out of my system. Hope you don’t mind. Stay strong and positive everyone! Keep up the good work you are doing. Remeber: You are all beautiful, just the way you are!
I have felt really good since I started recovery, and I’m a bit afraid that it’s going to change somday in the near future. I am enjoying every second of the day now, and I’m so much more positive. I love the way my body and my mind is changing.
Of course I sometimes look in the mirror and see all the “flaws” on my body, but then I remember that I am special and beautiful. I’m doing this recovery so that I can feel good in my own skin for the rest of my life. When that happens, the rest of my life will be the best of my life.
I just wanted to tell all you beautiful people out there to stay strong and positive. We can manage this recovery together!
Throughout the last months I told myself that I was beeing healthy. I never ate cake, candy, chocolate or any other “unhealthy” foods. I was never unhappy about it really, but I was always jealous of people that could eat all this unhealthy food without even thinking about it.
But yesterday there was a change in this habit. My dad and I were watching a movie on the TV, and he sat there eating potato chips. When he finished eating, he put the bowl on the table, and I took the bowl and ate a lot of potato chips. Potato chips! I didn’t even feel guilty at all, I just felt great.
After this I figured I could push it a bit, so I made some snacks with a chocolate spreading. It was heavenly good! I have to admit that I felt bad after I ate it, but I got over it. Why should not I eat the food that I crave and want?
Now I’m going to eat breakfast with my mum, and I’m going to eat everything that I want to eat. Freedom!
So, today was kind of a good day. I went to the doctor this morning, and my mother went with me. She knows all about my problems with food, so she told the doctor that she was worried that I would get skinnier. I just sat there feeling really scared, embarrassed and uncomfortable. I don’t like talking about my problems with people who don’t understand them, so it was a big deal for me.
Anyways. I had to take some blood samples, and later, when I came home, my mobile rang. It was the doctor, and she was really worried. She told me that I had low iron levels in my blood, and I had to get medicin for it. She also told me that that most likely was the reason I fainted a few days ago. I felt so relieved when she told me that, because I thought that I was the one doing that to my body. Now I know that I am eating enough, I just have low iron levels. I’m really happy about this!
Well, I can admit that I still have some problems, but I am determined to overcome this sickness once and for all. I just want to be healthy and happy, and I am starting at this moment! I love my body, my mind and my soul, and other people can not make me change my mind.
Love yourself and be happy about the life God gave you. You are beautiful from the inside out, and I love you all.